conflict drawing

Recently I've been concentrating on drawing and have devised a new method of working. It involves a lot of drawing and rubbing out. I try to allow the internal energy evoked by this process to find its way onto the paper. This video shows me completing a drawing. Marks are made and rubbed out. My daughter tries to prevent the rubbing out with all her might. I try to persevere. The drawing is the result of an exhausting but non-aggressive collaboration - a conflict between my need to reform my mark and her will to keep what I have laid down. It is fun and a good way to shake off any mother-daughter tension if ever there was any - we laugh a lot while we make the drawing. The conflict is only allowed to happen when I am rubbing out, never when I am drawing. She places her hands on top of my right wrist so she can remove them and move away at any time she wants to. Sometimes life as an artist can be an exhausting conflict between marks you have made, marks you wish you hadn't made, your attempts to put right and the ongoing parallel pressures from outside. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=miZEfKMIROg